My Love Letter to All That Matters

This is my love letter, my homage (if you will) to my time spent at All That Matters. It has been six years. It has been the longest job I have ever had and it has so far been THE most fulfilling job I have ever had. I do not know where or who I would be without All That Matters and I most certainly know that I would not know the people I know and feel the love that I feel EVERY DAMN DAY without having been a part of the ATM Family.

There have been very dark and bad times for me at ATM. There were times when I couldn't stand it there, where I felt like the worst person in the world and where I disliked the people I worked with. There was a time where I just plain hated myself and treated those around me with anger, vile words and behavior. There were times when my life was falling apart and I had nowhere to go except work to keep me sane.

Through it all they loved me. Even if it was hard to see that love, they did. The love never waivered and it never once left my side. It was always there for me to grab ahold of when I was ready to see it and accept it with grace and ease. For that I am eternally grateful.

There is and so much fun at ATM. That crazy place is FILLED to the brim with love for the people who walk through the doors and who work their fine behinds off every single day. I can think of no job that I have ever left with such a feeling of pride at having done what I did there. I can look back and know that at least at one point in my life, I worked someplace that mattered. I worked someplace that does and will continue to make a difference in people's lives.

I am so proud to be a part of All That Matters (because it is like the mob. once you get in, you never get out) but I am also proud at having made the decision to leave ATM. Because it was time, because I wanted to leave before I didnt truly love it anymore and because it isn't what I want to do with my life.

What do I want to do? Not sure yet. But I know that having been at ATM has made it easier for me to sit down, meditate and come up with that perfect picture of what I want to do.

In the meantime, you might see me wandering the yoga studios of ATM or attempting to be a barrista at Starbucks. Who knows? I jumped without a net this time (first time ever in my life) and the only reason I could do that was because I had gained a faith in myself and my decisions from working at ATM that I never thought I could aspire to. When I started at ATM I was a selfish, mean and pompous girl. I leave ATM knowing that I have grown kinder, more patient and far more loving than I thought was possible. It was a painful process (for me and for all around me) but it was worth more than any high paying job could have been.

Anyway, I wanted to say that today, before my final desk shift after six years of service so that everyone knows that no matter what I have said about ATM, it was the best job I ever had and I am so very honored to be leaving with a grace and dignity I never knew I had.

Thank you especially to Joan. I am so honored to be your friend.

I would love to thank all of my ATM friends personally but that would take days so for now, know that you are all so very special to me that there are no words that can truly express it and I hope that in all our time together you know that I love you!

See you all on the flip side.